So I've somewhat forgotten how to put my feelings into words since I stopped doing that on this blog, mostly due to a combination of growing out of my wallowing-in-emo-songs days (I hope) & censoring myself as more people began to read this space. If you follow me on Twitter (never missing an opportunity to self-promote, but I'm too lazy to link my profile here) you should have read that I have picked up 5 stray kittens. And am suddenly insanely popular. Everyone wants to visit me. Not sure if it's my astounding wit & personality that my friends missed while I was overseas for 3 weeks, or the 5 furry little members now squatting my home.
Other than that, feeling lonely & melancholic. At least I don't start school right away yet.
Unfortunately this will be my last semester at NUS & after that I have... no clear path wtf. All my life it's just been one obvious step after another - PSLE, OLevels, ALevels, university... Just one academic hurdle after another. Come mid-2013 I will officially have nothing laid out for me *panic*
This is only the 2nd day of 2013 & I'm not too sure how I like it already.
I wish the best for you Sophie:)
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You're so intelligent and kindhearted, I am confident you will find something you'll love for the rest of you life! Don't worry too much. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm graduating from poly this April and I'm at a lost of what to do too. :(
ReplyDeleteOMG! I thought im the only one with clear path and take one step after another and didnt plan out what to do next other than going through one academic hurdle after another. -.- hahaha
ReplyDeleteIts okay, you will slowly discover ur interest and dreams soon. All the best.
- K
I wish you the best!
ReplyDeleteI, too feel the same way. This is my last year in school and not quite sure what is ahead of me.
Cheer Sophie cheer! :D
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you're not the only one who is lost or confused. No one knows what holds for them in the future. Our lives started as a blank pages and it's up to each of us to create our stories. Some are beautiful masterpieces while others are simple and plain, but no matter what, each and every story is unique.
ReplyDeleteYou can write well. You're pretty. You have plenty of options.
I don't know why exactly, but this post touched me, and made me think about a lot of things. Maybe it's cos I can sorta relate to it all? *shrugs* Anyhoo, wishing you a wonderful year ahead Sophie! :D Continue blogging! :)
ReplyDeleteThis is my last semester as well but I don't get to graduate until novemeber. I was excited but now I am unsure and feeling like a loser. I guess all students feel like this when it comes to change but we make plans and hope for the best.
ReplyDeleteCheer up Sophie! You're not entirely alone, many of us feel this way too. Don't worry too much about it, you'll figure it out somehow! <3
ReplyDeletecompletely fine not knowing whether you like the new year yet; it'd be unrealistic to. it's like saying you should know whether or not you really like a person after meeting them briefly twice.
ReplyDeleteanyway, you may not know what exactly it us you want yet, but i've been a reader for quite some time and if i had to pick one word that'd encapsulate you well, it would be "focus."
whenever you've found something to motivate you, you've always worked relentlessly towards that goal. (though i do sympathize with your anxiety - i'm a junior in college >.<) but i'm confident you'll do yourself proud in the long run. :)
Hello Sophie,
ReplyDeletesorry to hear you are so unsure about your way atm. I can relate to it - I never knew what to do with my life as nothing (career-wise) really interested me. When I was in my teens, only two things sounded really good, being an author and breeding horses. I didn't do either :(
Maybe doing something with animals might be for you? Or modelling or being a cosmetic specialist or translator? Try to imagine yourself in certain professions and situations and see how you feel.
And if there is nothing yet, maybe you can dive more into blogging for the time being? You write very nicely, you are such a pretty and sweet girl, I really hope you will feel better again soon and hopefully find your way!
Concerning the kittens, I took care of strays when I lived in the Middle East. Kittens are lovely <3! I hope they will all find good homes and yeah, people all of a sudden rush in, everyone wants to see and hold kitties :)
Simone**
I know how you feel. By the end of December, I would have completed my uni studies and just where do I go on from there?? Not to mention, I am hardly thrilled at the thoughts of working for the next 44 or more years of my life. *inhales deeply*
ReplyDeletehi sophie i'm not sure if you'll read this, but all the best too! i did try to say this on fs but somehow fs now requires an account to post questions (unlike the past) :/
ReplyDeleteanyway, since this will be your last semester do you mind revealing like your CAP's progression? i'm not really like a competitive/cap 5.0 person but i'd just like to know how people's cap usually progress over time eg dip or rise or worst/best in the first semester. my first sem at nus was horrible since my cap was only 3.8.
i have so many plans (the exact opposite of you) like what kind of job i wanna do, which grad school to apply to etc but if i can;t even do well academically i feel like all these are irrelevant :(
thanks in advance! :)
Anon: 3.8 is a good CAP at NUS. In my first sem I got 3.6, then the 2nd sem pulled me down badly. It's the only sem in all my 4 years that was mediocre & till now I'm paying for it. It pulled my CAP down to 3.45 & now I've slowly dragged it back up to 3.9
ReplyDeleteHey me too. Ever since after O levels, with school ending and no more routine, I started to think more about my life an its goal. I haven't figured that out, and it seems that I'm not going to. And then suddeny life has lost it meaning haha. Even though there are still the obvious generic steps towards the future (eg, JC then Uni then Work) I'm still scared. Well its hard to make people feel better, but at least there's someone worrying about the same things as you do. Or have i misinterpreted this post completely?
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